Watched a heavy film last night, danish in subtitles called brothers. really well done, but basically one brother ends up a prisoner in Afganistan. The Afgans force him to choose between dying or killing the other danish solider with an iron bar. Under the pressue he flips out and beats the other guy to death. When he is later rescued but cant fit back into family life because of his guilt. The tag line of the film is this soilder saying to his wife:"there is no longer wrong and right, life is not good and bad, i love you is all that remains"

not exactly sweetness and light, but it struck me that without a way to forgiveness(self or otherwise), without a sense of something greater than the immediate, hope rapidly vanishes. I think no matter who I become or what job I do im still gonna have to be able to say: "Sorry lads I messed this up".