Monday, March 28, 2005

in gatwick

i am nearly back now just 6hours to kill in gatwick....

whats happened between last post and this is massive, thanks for all your prayers and support, we definately got immeasurably more than we could have hoped for or imagined...

Saturday, March 19, 2005

welcome to miami,

in the mac store in a big mall using the free internet :) cause the hotel charge loads..
most of whats going on will be on the now official miami blog at www.24-7miami.blogspot.com
and there are some photos up of the journey etc,
but its all good and some big new personally i am hoping to get baptised on sunday, it something i have been thinking about for about 3 years and then decided to do around november time, and kept putting off and now i just realised that its not some massive event where i have to wait for the planets to aling for, just when i feel God calling me to do it, so that should be exciting :)
welcome to miami,

in the mac store in a big mall using the free internet :) cause the hotel charge loads..
most of whats going on will be on the now official miami blog at www.24-7miami.blogspot.com
and there are some photos up of the journey etc,
but its all good and some big new personally i am hoping to get baptised on sunday, it something i have been thinking about for about 3 years and then decided to do around november time, and kept putting off and now i just realised that its not some massive event where i have to wait for the planets to aling for, just when i feel God calling me to do it, so that should be exciting :)

Tuesday, March 15, 2005


Daft Punk have made a new album called Human After All, i was in Hmv shopping for a birthday present for a mate and am now "testing" it before giving it to him, more french electro genius. A bit harder than "Discovery" their previous album (Digital Love, One More Time etc) but well worth the pennies, cant wait to hear it out :)
lapsang in the bath

decided to have a bath last night and to make things extra chilled i brought up a wee pot of lansang souchong tea and a book, i was chillin out enjoyin my lapsang in the bath, reading the book "vision and the vow" by pete grieg, which was sparking some pretty intense thought about past and family, when i accidentally knocked the tea pot, it wobbled and feel into the bath :) i was just laughin at myself for a while cause i now was definately having lasang in the bath...

Friday, March 11, 2005

10 days

the last 10 days have been mental and included so high highs and my lowest low.

last tuesday i asked an amazing girl called kelly out, and she said yes. it was the first time i actually felt like, scarry as it was, i could commit to having a proper relationship. it was awesome, exciting, an adventure of a totally new kind beginning...

then last weekend i was in st. andrews visiting my friend ryan, we were out on the saturday, i had decided not to drink (cause he doesnt) but in the bar changed my mind, when he left i stayed, i kept drinking, went to a cast party with another friend from belfast (who had been in the play) and ended up kissing another girl then went back to hers had sex with her...

since then my heads been wrecked, i had to tell kelly what a selfish scumbag i had been, had to look myself in the eye and realise how messed up i am and how i ruined what could have been something beautiful, but i have also had to accept that somehow Jesus still gives me His grace...

does this make me a bad person, a hypocrite, a fake? maybe, it definately makes me human and broken, for anyone who has read this blog for a while you will know that this isnt the first time i have thrown everything out the window for one night with a girl.... but it had been a long time and i had thought i was over that, but i guess the truth is you still have to make the right decisions no matter how long it has been.

it has all made me realise i was spending a lot of time talking about God and hanging out with Christians but not much time chilling with Jesus and allowing Him to be number 1 in my life. i had built a religious house of cards, where me being a christian was much more important than Jesus, and all the while frustration was building up because i was not satisfied...

so here i am at the beginning again, me a broken mess Jesus saving me and loving me...

Thursday, March 03, 2005


ahh the flor de cana, thanks to Maurice at work who recently took a trip to Costa Rica (where is spend a couple of months of my gap year) i am now the proud owner of new bottle of the good stuff. Its a sugar cane rum a bit like Mount Gay great with coke, ice and memories, the good times with the 3 musketeers, Lynda and all those other awesome ppl, adventures in the sunshine open roads of mexico... seems along way from snowy cold dublin... roll on miami; 2 weeks today ill be airborne oh YEAH...