wondering round ground zero

i had a lot more inspriation to write this post about 30mins ago but now have been fruiting around trying to get stuff to work and lost the imputus a little.

i played 3 vj gigs in the last three nights, which was fun but totally knackering and the last two nights were pretty thankless. thursday was for an up and coming band called The Tides who were cool, although ended up at a cultchie holy lands house party. friday was a night i put on for cutting off the long locks to raise money for iris ministries who i was away with before christmas. A good few of my mates came and some cool ppl played and although we made £185 it felt like a bit of a wash out as the venue was quite big and never felt anything like full. Then last night played at the opening of an underage night club / super youth club, again awesome location and cool ppl but just not really enough.

that all lead to me feeling like crap driving home, but once there i just chilled out with Jesus and after a little while he showed up and loved me back to life, mozambique really has ruined me for satisfaction in anything other than Him, now matter how hard i tried, got some good Holy Spirit jiving going on too.

then woke up this morning just in time to catch a lift to church with my parents, a while ago i felt called to be involved in the place i first encountered God again. The church is Jesus bride and not matter what state it is speaking ill of it isnt goin to get us anywhere, but it just felt a like so little of our potential in God was on offer, we arent slaves to anything anymore, there is no need so encourage ppl to show up at church, God's interaction with us is a love story, He things we are awesome and although there may be some areas of our lives which arent perfect He is MUCH more excited about getting to know us and love us than He would like us to try and sort ourselves out.

the Holy Spirit will mould us more into Christ's image but right now we are master pieces of God's handy work (eph 2) and He is longing to do miracles through us right now, not when we have quit smoking or stopped having lustful thoughts. look at the disciples, went around healing ppl and casting out demons (matt 10) then a wee while later are aguing about who is better, and then denying then even knew Jesus when the pressure was on.

i highly recommend the mosaic podcast its an awesomely creative church in LA.

but yeah where do we go from here, its all a bit like hard work, i dont min workin away at stuff but i dont want to waste time floggin a dead horse, but then there must always be hope, or rather there is always hope, and its all worship....