free

its all good over here in the head of graham.
went to chris' on wednesday my head wreked with work and stuff to be done, had got a letter from a friend telling me to wait on the Lord, like isiah 40. went and chilled then chris stuck on the passion of the christ dvd on mute, while mike played an amazing some about Jesus being King of Glory and it is finnised. Over the next hour got a new understanding of how Jesus life and death were to put us and me back with God, so trying to be good to show God i deserve his love, is totally pointless, it can never be done and its an insult to Jesus.

I am free to do anything at all, with the Holy Spirit inside us transforming us, it is His responsibilty to change me, to influence people to work miracles. mine is just to go along with it. Jesus power is greater than our desires, so if we are trying not to sin we've missed the point, our desires to do will be delt with by God. so that instead of repressing ourselves we will be transformed into people who freely do all they love and those things are amazing things.

the short term side effect is slight chaos, having been in a place where i have been repressing feelings for a physical realtionship with girls, trying to prove myself "holy" to him as i have realised his total love for me i allowed temptation to get the better of me last night. which throws a much controversial light on the whole situation...

but i really cant cope with the concept of trying to measure up to some mental image of what God's standard might be, so ill journey down this road a little further...

for great talks and bible stuff on all this go here its long but so good. check the whole gracecenterfranklin.orf audio stuff.