i would go anywhere do anything just to prove myself to anyone. sometimes that leads to great adventures, other times disasterous consequences, but ultimately it robs me of identity. what would i do if i really didnt care what anyone thought? dont know never been there.
sometimes i dare to be different, but is that partly cause i like the idea of people seeing me as someone who dares to be different? i think this is also very true of my religion, what would Jesus do? what would these ppl think Jesus would do?
cause Jesus left his job, made wine, trashed templets, hung out with prostitues and got killed by the authorities. yet somehow that gets equatedd to being nice, getting up early on sunday and not doing anything too risky.
that means lots of me is bottled up, only to be released in rare occasions that have to be appologiesd for afterwards. thats not a life lead by a loving relationship with God, sometimes maybe when no one's lookin i might be genuine, or carry a passion from my heart beyond these bounds of opinion, but these are the exception not the rule.
but no more, if God's grace and power are all conqueoring, which i belive they are, then out of the bottle i come all the bits, exposed to his light that which does not benefit will go, and in the mean time i will not be listening to any voice that says what will people think...
