bogging

hows it going the world? this is my very first bog blog,
by the power of wireless networking and my mates laptop i am on the toilet writting my blog connected to the internet,
proof that technology is worthwhile :)

apart from that life is a bit hectic at the minute, i have started working for the youth work provision agency but this time on waking nights which mean i have to stay up all night and look after any kids who wake up, the shift runs 10pm to 9am and i did my first on wed nite/thurs morn and had to get the bus straight to lectures! i have another one tonight. but im getting paid so its all good
trying to work out what to do with my liife here at the minute, felt over the summer God calling me to do something more practical within the community there is an estate beside the uni and the relations between residents and students are pretty bad, ie students get a kicking, so it would be cool to try and do something to help that situation, but what and how are very big questions, God is a bigger God but i need to do some leg work to find stuff out.

am coming to the end of a 2week prayer and fast called by the church i fasted from drink, which has been cool, has made several situations easier to make the right decision, and provoked some good discussions about things, I have no plans for tee totality but its cool to put it before God and make sure im in control of it not vice versa

later
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from jonny cousins cool artical
i quote

Here's an article I read recently - quite interesting perspective. So much
of our culture has it totally flipped!

http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2003/010/3.46.html

sorry no post for so long
no internet in house and not a lot of time to walk the 30 mins to uni
everthing is cool enough with me
enjoying my new house and mates, we are eating together which is really cool and showing a bit of love
went to the halls commitee to see about some reconciliation with hoods from an estate who give students a kicking they were a bit afraid but on the much better they said they would let me take a motion to the big uni concil and they would back me up so that#s cool i dont really know what i am doin with it but i really felt God saying do this over the summer so its up to Him, but should be cool
anyway keep it real

Praise: Finnished cover to cover in about 13months :) but i was very cool highly recomend it

> > > > > > A drunk man in an Oldsmobile
> > > > > > They said had run the light
> > > > > > That caused the six-car pileup
> > > > > > On 109 that night.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > When broken bodies lay about
> > > > > > And blood was everywhere,
> > > > > > The sirens screamed out elegies,
> > > > > > For death was in the air.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > A mother, trapped inside her car,
> > > > > > Was heard above the noise;
> > > > > > Her plaintive plea near split the air:
> > > > > > “Oh, God, please spare my boys!“
> > > > > >
> > > > > > She fought to loose her pinned hands;
> > > > > > She struggled to get free,
> > > > > > But mangled metal held her fast
> > > > > > In grim captivity.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Her frightened eyes then focused
> > > > > > On where the back seat once had been,
> > > > > > But all she saw was broken glass and
> > > > > > Two children's seats crushed in.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Her twins were nowhere to be seen;
> > > > > > She did not hear them cry,
> > > > > > And then she prayed they'd been thrown free,
> > > > > > “Oh, God, don't let them die!“
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Then firemen came and cut her loose,
> > > > > > But when they searched the back,
> > > > > > They found therein no little boys,
> > > > > > But the seat belts were intact.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > They thought the woman had gone mad
> > > > > > And was traveling alone,
> > > > > > But when they turned to question her,
> > > > > > They discovered she was gone.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Policemen saw her running wild
> > > > > > And screaming above the noise
> > > > > > In beseeching supplication,
> > > > > > “Please help me find my boys!
> > > > > >
> > > > > > They're four years old and wear blue shirts;
> > > > > > Their jeans are blue to match.“
> > > > > > One cop spoke up, “They're in my car,
> > > > > > And they don't have a scratch.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > They said their daddy put them there
> > > > > > And gave them each a cone,
> > > > > > Then told them both to wait for Mom
> > > > > > To come and take them home.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > I've searched the area high and low,
> > > > > > But I can't find their dad.
> > > > > > He must have fled the scene,
> > > > > > I guess, and that is very bad.“
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The mother hugged the twins and said,
> > > > > > While wiping at a tear,
> > > > > > “He could not flee the scene, you see,
> > > > > > For he's been dead a year.“
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The cop just looked confused and asked,
> > > > > > “Now, how can that be true?“
> > > > > > The boys said, “Mommy, Daddy came
> > > > > > And left a kiss for you.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > He told us not to worry
> > > > > > And that you would be all right,
> > > > > > And then he put us in this car with
> > > > > > The pretty, flashing light.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > We wanted him to stay with us,
> > > > > > Because we miss him so,
> > > > > > But Mommy, he just hugged us tight
> > > > > > And said he had to go.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > He said someday we'd understand
> > > > > > And told us not to fuss,
> > > > > > And he said to tell you, Mommy,
> > > > > > He's watching over us.“
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The mother knew without a doubt
> > > > > > That what they spoke was true,
> > > > > > For she recalled their dad's last words,
> > > > > > “I will watch over you.“
> > > > > >
> > > > > > The firemen's notes could not explain
> > > > > > The twisted, mangled car,
> > > > > > And how the three of them escaped
> > > > > > Without a single scar.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > But on the cop's report was scribed,
> > > > > > In print so very fine,
> > > > > > An angel walked the beat tonight
> > > > > > On Highway 109.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > “He who has a thousand friends has not a friend to spare.“
> > > > > > Just repeat this prayer and see how God moves!!
> > > > > > “Lord, I love you and I need you. Come into my heart, and bless
> my
> > > > > > family,
> > > > > > my home, my friends and me. In Jesus' name. Amen.
> > > > > >
> > > > > “Don't keep the blessing to yourself, pass it on!

sorry about the long time no blog

especially to ems d, i argued that i wasnt a crap blogger last time i was chatting to her

very tired, went to sleep about 4 woke and few times got up at 9 went to church then work now here.
was out for Jo's birthday a good night quite crazy, we were in 32(a group of friends student house) having a wee party and Jo's mum had bought some food and beers. Then we went to Vicos'(a nasty belfast club that plays great music and is generally full of wasted ppl) about 11:20 most of the rest of the crewe were doing pills but not really too heavy and we did some good dancing, then i was dancing with jo a bit and it seemed like maybe something was going to happen so i ran off to the toilet for a pray, phoned Joe(differnt to Jo) for some good advice and returned to the club resloved to not kiss Jo, which was cool, i went up to another floor of the club with a few other friends so the temptation was removed and everything was great and i was dancing and then i sat down and got into a really cool spiritiual discussion with one of the girls, about how she felt under pressure from some christian friends but didnt think she could "be a christian" and we were sitting close cause the music was really loud and then we were kissing... DOH
out of the frying pan into the fire, my will power and self control once more found totally lacking, walked back to 32 with the girl and then spent a long time together and ended up sleeping in her bed, but not sleeping with her, if you know what i mean... total disaster especially because my mate mike had been saying how he really respected my fatih and how i was the only genuine christian he knew.... i mean if christianity was a job id be fired
but then church was all about the God, our dad's love, and the prodical son and all the things about how God loves me even thought i am crap, so that was cool that He came a sorted me out but seriously the whole dersire for women thing finding it a BIG challenge right now.
actually considering saying i have a girl friend when i go back to uni, but then i think God's spirit will do a lot more to help me than lies will...
big up claire porter for praying for me last night, because without those prayers things could have been a lot worse.
so all prayers/ advice welcomed....